Trance me away..

So.. I thought I would post some of the songs I recently downloaded..

Most of these are from MixUpload, it's some russian site lol, just connect with facebook and you're all set =] Enjoy!

Sergey Alekseev & Sythneticsax feat. Ai Takekawa - Waiting For You (Valentin Remix)
Conjure One feat. Aruna - Still Holing On (Arisen Flame Remix)
Tenishia feat. Ana Criado - Ever True (Club Mix)
Aly & Fila feat. Susana 0 Without You (Woody can Eyden Remix)
Giuseppe Ottaviani feat, Audrey Gallagher - Walk This World With Me (Extended Mix)
Phuture Sound feat. Tavy - Beat Of Your Heart (Suncatcher Vocal Mix)
Eddie Bitar feat. Christina Novelli - Start Again (Original Mix)
Ilya ViG feat, Hanna Finsen - Second Life (AERO 21 Remix)
Lost WItness deat Tiff Lacey - Love Again (Another World Vocal Mix)
Bussmeisters -#PHUNK (Original Mix)
Dash Berlin - Waiting ft. Emma Hewitt

Catch up time

Since last blog was July, I went through my phone to look for photos which may remind me of what has happened since I last blogged.

So my 20th birthday went by a few days after my last post, if you can even call it a post. So I think after looking that those photos, I should try to keep my hair short xD It looks pretty damn bad when it's longer!

Still in July, I came second in the sturt badminton tournament doubles with Zhen. Not bad, I honestly thought we weren't going to get anywhere even though our draw wasn't that bad. Got a two pairs of socks and a $25 voucher for footlocker where I got another two pair of socks =] It's nice to have thick comfy socks now

Also went to paintballing with some of my sister's then-boyfriend-now-fiance's church friends, quite fun. It was kinda cool to know that my sister is now engaged, and I think the best part is that I actually know and get along well with him. Unlike her ex-boyfriend where I didn't even talk to him, cos he was one of those HK guys lol, you know?

Gave my car a nice thorough clean, and also trimmed all the grey plastics in the car white. I would love to do more to the car, but my dad said I'm not allowed to. But I can't complain since it ain't exactly my car, and it would be quite costly.

Now in August, not much happened. My dad's birthday came past, and I bought him a lot of those biscuits that we both really like =] Uncle Willis also came over during his birthday, but he didn't bring his family unfortunately. I don't know if I exactly miss my cousins, but I think it would be nice to see them once in a while.

If only she wasn't trying to hold in all the cake she had in her mouth..

So I went to a party at Apple Bar with the girlfriend and some elec eng friends, it was fun. But as usual, I don't dance so there's that.

I also did the ice bucket challenge that went around in August, I didn't do it for the charity but just for the fun of it haha..

And September came rolling across, and with it comes my anniversary. But before we talk about that, a friend came back from Singapore for a holiday while he had a break from national service. Too bad we didn't get around to going for a run or anything cos I wanted to see how far he can push my limits =] But we did get a chance to go to hahndorf for lunch and a beer.

So it's been four years that I've been dating Li Yen, but I'm kinda sad because we can't really move on in the relationship. Why? Obviously because we are still young.. If I could I would love to fast forward time and graduate then we can probs do something. But for now we are stuck as we are.. Nonetheless I love her. Exchanging gifts as most couples do on their anniversary

Like the ring? I also do

Honestly at the time I was looking for a ring for her, I was really looking at the <$200 price range because I didn't even think about spending that much money on jewelry, until I saw this one. And it was perfect, so I bought it. After this I realised, I don't really think I should put a budget on a present I buy, because why should I? I work for my money, so I can spend it. Bullshit money can't buy happiness, you have no idea how happy I was when I bought it xD

And now, October comes along and smacks me right in the face! So much homework, and I got back into Runescape. Didn't really do much.

November! My grandparents just left, they are going to Sydney then later back to Hong Kong, honestly I don't know what to think. Because I'm sad but also relieved that they are gone. I know it's inhumane and rude, but it was quite annoying to hear them complain and complain, but I feel sorry for them as they can't really do anything here, it's so inconvenient for them. But I do enjoy having my grandparents here, even though I do like coming back to an empty house, it's also nice to have someone greet you back when you say your home. 

Brings me to my next point. I have been reading some manga lately. Yes, it's a romance comedy, that's the kind of manga that I like =] It was incomplete when I first read it, so I got back into it and finished it in a couple of days. I even stayed up til 6 one night/morning =] Of course life isn't like in the mangas but I guess what makes a good manga is that it let's me dream of what it would be like to be in that situation. Eg. living with your girlfriend, having someone to spend time with whenever you want. But unfortunately I have no idea how to cook, so before I leave home I gotta make sure I can easily whip up a nice dinner xD

Also my dad has a man problem now, it runs in the family so I will also get it when I get older. Not even kidding, my grandpa has it, my two uncles do and so does my dad. So there is absolutely no way out for me, maybe for my brother since he's more like my mom, but for me.. I'm doomed. Something is causing his urinary tract to be blocked, like squished, so it's a big problem. So he is on some medicine right now, but in a week he will have to go back to the specialist and see if he needs surgery but the thing is that after surgery he will need to have that surgery again every 1 or 2 years.

The sudden urge to blog came from a trance mix I just started to listen to, I don't why but it just urged me to post. But I guess I'll have to be downloading most of these songs that I just listened to haha. These headphones (Sennheiser HD598) takes listening to trance to another level, the female vocals are just so amazing, It blows you away, far far away to a land where you can just worry about nothing and enjoy the music and fantasize about how you want to live your future life.

On that topic, I really want to go somewhere with my girlfriend over the summer holiday, but I don't think my parents would let me go alone with her. Even if they would I think it's harder to convince her parents than mine, I know that if we go in a group my parents would definitely let me. But that's another thing that limits how far we can advance in our relationship.

So there's that, I have an exam tomorrow and the girlfriend is waiting for me to study with her for the past hour or so haha.. I had a fun time blogging.

In my opinion, the best two romance mangas are Kimi no Iru Machi and Suzuka. I also have some other good ones which are a bit ecchi,

See you next time!

Lingerie

Lingerie is the sexiest thing ever invented.

I love it.

Technological upgrade time!

Hey there! Once again, spending money xD So since my phone plan was ending, I convinced my dad to let me get the iPhone 5s with me paying the extra.. Even though it was supposed to deliver within 4 days, vodafone has disappointed me :C Anyways I will get it this week though since it is ready to be shipped out from the warehouse!

ANNDDDD I bought a zippo lighter xD Why? Coz it's fun, and the idea originally came from massdrop, where they had extra stock but then they didn't have the one I want so I hopped on ebay and found one =]

Something has been bothering me ALOT lately.. You know when it's hurting you, but you can't do anything about it? Well, my table is so messy coz there's crap everywhere and it's driving me crazy.. There's two blocks of chocolate that I don't like and haven't been bothered to bring it back to the kitchen lel..and my secondary monitor is not in the correct position, and it alot worse than my primary one.. It gets on my nerves.. LCD vs PLS/IPS.. It's like my computer vs a phone..

People ask me why I don't dance.. I dno.. that's just me.. it's always been like that ever since I was young, at church when they do their dance in sunday school.. I never did it.. When you get older and they put their hands up, I never did that.. Nothing makes me feel like dancing, except watching ballroom dancing xD I love that shit.. It looks so cool right? I'm scared when I get married and I can't dance.. So why did I bring this up? Li Yen went to the international glow party this year and had lots of fun, but I didn't go.. Coz if I went I probs woulda ruined it for her.. If I start breaking out moves on the dancefloor I might break my back lel xD AND I've always wanted to learn to breakdance, I think it's really cool.. But then I burnt a hole in my old trackies and burnt my knee even though I was using cardboard on carpet.. I slipped off and GGWP, that was the last time I attempted to breakdance.. Maybe I should just man up and do it on tiles haha..

I don't have the links for the downloads of the songs but I'll give the titles and you can get them yourself
Tightrope - Illy
Reflections (Milkman Remix) - MisterWives
My Girl - The Temptations MY SASSY GIRLLLL
Faded - ZHU
TRANCE
Assure You (Gradian Vocal Mix) - Essonita ft. Irina Makosh
Meaningless Road - Aivem vs Vilmo and Justina Adeikyte
One Life - DJ Feel & Roger Shah feat. Zara Taylor
Back To You (Wach Remix) - Fabio XB & Liuck feat. Christina Novelli
Heart of Stone (Solarstone Pure Mix) - Iko
So Lonely (Kaimo K Remix) - Feel, Vadim Spark & Chris Jones
Shield of Hearts (Dreamy Banging Remix) - Rusch & Murray

Bye

Disappear

Don't you ever wonder that would happen if you suddenly disappeared from your family and friend's lives? So every Sunday I would have to do the laundry, because I'm the only one who is at home and weekend is apparently the only time my mom has to do put the clothes in the washing machine. By no means is this a small load of washing, 5 people washing happens once a week. It is quite the load. So she was asking if I had done the laundry today, and I was like, "Nope" and she was like, "Aiya, forgot to ask you". Then I was like, "What if, one day. I'm not here to do the laundry anymore?". That's when I started spacing out and thought about all the different scenarios that could take place. One of them was quite cool, it was where I was actually still living in the house, but if anyone except for me walked or looked into my room, it would be empty. But I was only invisible to my family.

I just wanna win the lottery and just disappear from these people. They don't benefit from me, and I hardly benefit from them. Sure I could compare my life with people in the 3rd world country and see how good it is, but guess what? I'm not in a third world country am I?

So my mom just complained about my music volume, and this is the reason why I need those headphones. Sure I can use the headphones I have right now, but why don't I? Because it's just not the same, the sound is just pounding into my ears, it's not like speakers where the sound is rebounding off the walls and into my ears. But with those open air headphones will create a nice soundstage. Wow such off topic lel.

Okies I'm out! Got so much homework to do, but I just wanna play DotA xD

Grudges

So my cousin Michelle came to the shop on Saturday while I was working, she brought Phil, Xavier and the newborn Willow, and also aunty Monica and uncle Kevin. It was a bit weird though, coz right after they came in, the shop suddenly filled up and got really busy. Michelle came up and ordered a bunch of coffees, so I wrote it down. Usually if it's for 自己人 we do the coffee's after the customers', but since it was quite busy and if I did the usual thing it would take them ages to get their coffees. So I did theirs first, and took it out to them etc. After I finished with the coffee listing, I went to sit down and have a chat. I was talking to Xavier, then she's like "Xavier, who's this?" but Xavier doesn't know coz I don't see him very often. Then she's like, "That's Fu!" Fu basically means uncle, but it's too difficult for him to say biu cow fu, so we just shorten it to fu for him. But then she's like "This is the most annoying fu" and instantly I just wanna say "Oh... well fuck you too".

Like was that really necessary? Sure I'm probs the cousin that you know least since you're so old and played with every other cousin except for me, etc. And I'm not the most sociable person. But there's no need for that eh? Like telling your kid that this uncle is shit just coz we don't get along very well. FYI I really don't like Michelle, it's coz whenever there is a topic at family dinner and I say anything as a joke, most of them knows it's a joke or even just my own opinion and just takes it. She has to go and make it a huge problem. She doesn't think outside the box, doesn't allow room for other people's opinions that do not agree with her's.

So tonight at dinner, I was sitting next to Xavier and I was attempting to talk to him. Then she's like "Man, you have no idea how to talk to a toddler do you?". I'm like.. bro wtf do you expect from me? Do I look like I'm old enough to have a kid? I'm the fucking youngest in the family, I haven't played with any little kids in my life (please, no pedophile). So I just gave her the "What the fuck?" and stop playing with Xavier. This is the reason I hate going to family dinners, so every time I just tell my parents I'm not going then they complain about how I'm just going to sit in front of my computer and play games. Well no shit, I'd rather lose games on DotA than to go to family dinner, get pissed then get yelled at by my parents on the way home. Guess tonight I chose to go was a bad idea as well.

You might say, well Ian, you're exactly the same, what a huge hypocrite. Well that's unfortunate.. This is just my rant of the night.

I promise, I deliver

So this song stuck out to me, reached out and grabbed my heart. Not only was it free to download, but that name.. It was almost like it was destiny for me to fall for it.

Atval - Skyline
https://soundcloud.com/housemusic/skyline-by-atval-edm-com

Laters

I'm so weird

Well my girlfriend was just reading my blog, and we were talking.. And I recalled how I felt when the racket snapped, it was really weird.. I felt so sad, it was like I broke up with the racket.. All that sentimental value, all the matches I lost and won with it.. So weird right? It's like I was in a relationship with it hahaha.. All the ups and downs we went through together!

Already a month..

WARNING: Before you read, please get yourself a nice cup of tea, and prepare for an ULTRA depressing post! Literally get a cup of tea before you read.

Word count: 1819

Hey there! Long time eh? How did one month pass by so quickly? I thought it has only been like 2 weeks since I said I was gonna blog xD Well now is the time to blog.. Why? Coz I feel like shiet.. like COMPLETE trash.. I don't feel like doing anything now. Why? Coz of the tournament that I played in over the weekend just then, it was so bad.. That shit can't even be called badminton. To top everything off I snapped two strings, got them restrung then snapping the Z-Force. So freaking retarded..

Doubles, I had no choice but to lose.. I didn't play too bad but my partner was just getting owned with every shot going to him xD But singles and mixed.. That shit was fucked. Played so many shit matches of mixed during the season where I basically was playing singles on court, then come to tournament with that mindset and played singles on the court like a fucking retard. Literally every shot was a singles shot, did like two pushes in the whole game. Only on the way home did I realise that I wasn't playing mixed, I knew I was playing shit and disgusting but didn't realise that fact on the court, maybe if I did we coulda won.. Maybe if I wasn't that shiet eh? Always next time.. Even though I'm going to state league now, I'll probs go back down to A grade after the winter season coz I just get trashed too much and drop instead of improve.. During the whole tournament I had one good game, that was singles against a friend. Even though I lost, it was a good game compared to the rest.. All the rest where either opponents on a completely different level, or I played like a shitcunt..

I don't understand why I have broken so many rackets compared to other people, I don't mistreat my rackets, I don't throw them on the ground. I don't hit the ground << I see so many people do this.. But I seem to always break my racket, it was my favorite racket as well.. Maybe I can get one off a friend for cheap since he doesn't use it anymore, but I really don't have the money right now for another racket.. I should probs being a little shit and just use my brother's rackets.. I used them before, a little weird but once I got used to them, they were great.. But the reason I don't wanna use them is that I'm scared of breaking them too, how much dad and brother would scold me. Saying I hit the racket of the ground etc, coz I apparently I used to do that when I have to move backwards. But I'm pretty sure I have stopped that habit already.

Gee what a long ass depressing post eh? Well just so you know, I spent around 5 seconds wondering how to spelling depressing after typing "deper" I wished so many times that I can go back in time and change all the things that I have done, one thing I'm thinking of now, is that I shouldn't have spent so much money on a new computer, shouldn't have borrowed money, this feeling of owing money is the worst.. Even though I know I can return the money after a long time since it was from my girlfriend, but I hate this feeling.. Normally getting shouted lunch is fine coz I can pay back in that week by shouting them lunch, but this time it's a hard amount of money, at least to me it is.. It just feels as though no cash I have is mine, But that is true since it is the saved up money to payback..

So many things I want to buy, but I have to keep dreaming about them. I know that my girlfriend will read this and ask me what I want. And I will tell her the headphones that I want, but I don't want that, I don't want her to buy it for me even though I know she really doesn't mind. I just feel like shit when people give me the things that I ask for, makes me feel so low. I want to earn the things that I buy, that way I take care of them. In my opinion, I think I take pretty good care of all the things that I own, yes that includes my rackets even though I didn't pay for every single one.. The only rackets I have paid for was half the Z-force and the VT80. Dad said he would pay for half the racket so obviously I agreed =] Nowadays he won't pay any xD Even though I know my dad won't pay for anything for me anymore, apart from obvious stuff, I still like to ask him to pay, why? Because I like the way my dad responds xD Tells me that I work and he pays me then also have to pay for MY stuff.

So a friend of mine asked me if I thought it was fine that a person got out of a 2.5 year relationship then start dating a friend that the ex also knows in 6 months. I think that it's fine, as long as the person is sure that he/she wants that last relationship gone and isn't wavering about the ex, why? Coz it ruins the next relationship, I admit that I went into my current relationship still wavering over my ex at the time, it was horrible. The new relationship was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life, and til now it is still hard.. Why? Because about 1 year into it, I started wavering again and lost my girlfriend's trust. Til now she still doesn't fully trust me, and I don't blame her for that. I'm an indecisive person, if I could have gone back in time, I would have waited longer before going into another relationship just so I don't have to hurt the my girlfriend like this and poke a big hole in the relationship. Not saying that I wouldn't date my current girlfriend, coz I know you'll be reading this and thinking that, it's just that this relationship has a big hole that I have no idea to fix and that I wish I didn't hurt you the way I did, and I'm sorry. I hate myself as a person, because I hate all the stuff I have done, all the stupid decisions I selfishly made and hurt people closest to me.

I know one thing that if I had gone back in time that I would still buy.. my keyboard, I love this thing to bits, especially when I am typing like this and just not stopping, it makes sounds that is like sex to my ears! XD there you go! That's the happy bit of this post! Maybe more later, but I've been at this for about an hour now, and I still have stuff on my mind but I can't pinpoint them. So I'll take a break And I thought of one right there, the game where you try to get the 2048 tile, it's a game on your phone! So after 3 days of playing I finally got it =] Picture later, but now it's time for me to take a break, go upstairs say hi to my mom and pour myself a nice cup of tea, maybe even green tea.

And I'm back, and mom is going to cook me a nice fat pork steak for me tonight =] My parents still want me to go back to church, I wonder if it really bothers them that much that I don't go to church anymore.. But they don't directly ask me to go to church anymore, but subtly they will imply it.. Just then my mom was telling me that one of the church pastors came to the coffee shop today, and she was saying how he was so young but so knowledgeable, and how all pastors are really knowledgeable people.

Got myself a cup of milk tea instead of green tea.. Because I like to have green tea, when I'm relaxed playing games or doing homework, but right now even thought I enough doing this, I'm not feeling relaxed at all, I haven't been feeling relaxed after the tournament. Even though I'm really tired, and easily doze off the sleep, I don't feel relaxed.. I have so much homework to do and so much to catch up on, because I miss so many lectures, but I can't bring myself to doing them when I am like this.. Before the tournament I was ready to have to spend the Sunday watching at least my EEE and Statics lecture, but now I just feel like shit.. But I promised myself that I will get to it after I'm done with this post and dinner, no more procrastination tonight and if I finish my work early enough I get to go and hit the gym.. Get my music on and work.. If you are interested I listen to DJ Epsilon and TranceformYourWorld << this was the guy who did NanoMusikTV but it got shutdown. Just so you know, those two are different genres of music. DJ Epsilon is more clubby style songs whereas TranceformYourWorld as the name suggests (feel like I'm writing an essay =.=) has more songs to take me away from this place, as gay as it sounds, it makes me feel like I'm in my own world and I can do anything I want to eg. cry. Lel.

I have so many things that I want to buy, mostly technology because I always watch unboxings and reviews on youtube, you can tell me its gay, geeky, nerdy but I enjoy it, why? Because it's like me buying it and seeing what you get with it and how it performs without having to pay. But this also makes me want to buy the stuff and have it for myself if it turns out to be a good product!

So for now there's nothing that I want to talk about. I have downloaded a couple of songs about nothing that SPECTACULAR to post for you guys.. Ooo maybe this song I'm listening to right now.. Well if I find any tonight, I will make sure I post it tomorrow! I promise!

As you can probably tell from my writing/typing that I am feeling better now, compare before I went to get tea and after! So, once again, this blog has helped me relief my stress! Yayer!

Just to clarify I didn't try to write the biggest post in my life or anything, it's just that all these thinks just popped into my head while typing, one thing lead to another. Bye!

Byebye Z-Force! May the force be with you.

Soon..

I will blog soon..